Im starting to feel hopless lowkey 😮‍💨

The state of this economy is wrecking my soul. I know i need money and therefore, i shouldnt complain about working anything....but my soul cant accept it. I simply cant work just live. I have to havw some kind of happiness with my work. Otherwise whats the point? My bills are paid but i wanna die everyday? And even if i let that go, i send out applications everyday and get nothing back....i get that its not just me that goes through it, but i just cant keep it in. This country is misery and were trapped in it. I hope i get a job soon, i cant take this anxiety.
I wish i was princess with everything takwm care of for me or a mermaid woth no responsibilities except having crushes on cute princes 😭