I learned work wise what I am not good at
I’m not good at multitasking several tasks at once. The most I do is listen to music, podcasts, audiobooks etc. while I do my textile/fiber needlework crafts or listen to soft music while I do art or writing. I am terrible in a fast paced environment that is ruthless and competitive or only focused on the bottom line. I have no patience for people’s complaints or demands and will either tell them to fuck off or break down somewhere crying. ( customer service/sales/retail) I am not a good handler of rigid schedules and rules in the workforce. I am not good at very physically demanding jobs because I am muscularly not used to heavy equipment and got easily tired ( janitorial work plus I got spooked being by myself at night in a poorly lit location that turned out to be haunted I quit after the first night) and I hated being in home health care as a homemaker cleaning houses full of the smell of cigarette smoke, doing laundry, and running to the grocery store on limited time constraints. I hated freelance house cleaning too and I wasn’t even fast enough to be good at it. I didn’t have the patience for entrepreneurship and selling used fashion online when things didn’t sell I gave up. Working with animals pet sitting and dog walking was considerably better but I didn’t get enough clients to make enough money from it. I had one or two clients at different times and I had no certifications to work with animals.
I am not a natural hustler. I need the work provided for me and goddamn do I hate these last jobs I had except for the pet sitting and dogwalking. Minus freelancing for myself with occasional work until about age 26. I have not held down a steady job ever except retail working 10 hours a week on average for several months at a department store and on call in a woman’s small shop with some skimpy club wear as some products. Menial jobs have never suited me. I am no good working in hospitality, food service, customer service, retail.sales, janitorial work or house cleaning. I cannot stand jobs that have on call status where they ask you to come in at last minute, unpredictability and unstable hours, unpredictable behavior from clients, dirty filthy environments, or just seeing people in distressing situations like old people who can’t leave their homes on their own because of health conditions and who cry recounting their lives. I came home and cried. I need flexibility, freedom, Independence, autonomy, variety, intellectual stimulation, and creativity, and emotional calm, not emotional distress.
The jobs that I would be good at require training and education. That’s what I am focusing on now. Then I will stick with careers that are a good fit, work enough time to make enough money, and show my parents I can work and will not always need disability benefits.
Also working remotely and with a flexible schedule where I can make my own structure would be so helpful. I need to finish the career training programs I already bought and buy more certificate and diploma programs in the future. On top of my future degrees I will make sure I have in demand careers so I am never out of work again. I will never work unskilled menial repetitive jobs ever again. I need to prove to my parents, family, and sister that I can work and do not need disability benefits permanently. They are a way to stay poor and dependent on the. Government for the rest of my life. I need them now because. I have no other sources of income coming in and am tired from my cancer treatment and am working on my mental illnesses. My parents also worry about my health insurance coverage since I’m guaranteed government health insurance called masshealth right now because I don’t make any money. You don’t qualify if you make too much money.
Ideally I think I could reach about 25-30 hours a week or its equivalent without burning out. Maybe if I’m in. Really good place 30-40 hours per week or its equivalent but I still think full time will probably burn me out. My family thinks if I can’t handle working full time to get all the employer benefits, ir will be hard tor me to live. It’s true if an employer will not cover my health insurance I would be responsible for self employed insurance and that can a couple hundred every month to start. And life is expensive but if I found creative ways to cut down on living costs like housing and utilities, transportation, and household supplies and so on I could be all right. If I made $ 45,000-$60,000 on a part time basis I think that’s ok. I would be moderately happy if I made $50,000-$100,000 every year. More than that if I worked full time I would be ecstatic.
I am not a natural entrepreneur and I do not have the patience and energy for it but still crave latitude in the workforce. I don’t have the energy to stress myself for constantly finding new clients and I’m not great at interviewing. I need industries where the portfolio, samples, and past work experience speaks for you and maybe passing an assessment to prove you are capable to do the work. I need long term anchor clients as well as short term clients. Also I like.work with a consistent regular workflow.
Also with freelance, you need to save a financial cushion to save for a few months to a year in case it is great or famine.
I am not a natural hustler. I need the work provided for me and goddamn do I hate these last jobs I had except for the pet sitting and dogwalking. Minus freelancing for myself with occasional work until about age 26. I have not held down a steady job ever except retail working 10 hours a week on average for several months at a department store and on call in a woman’s small shop with some skimpy club wear as some products. Menial jobs have never suited me. I am no good working in hospitality, food service, customer service, retail.sales, janitorial work or house cleaning. I cannot stand jobs that have on call status where they ask you to come in at last minute, unpredictability and unstable hours, unpredictable behavior from clients, dirty filthy environments, or just seeing people in distressing situations like old people who can’t leave their homes on their own because of health conditions and who cry recounting their lives. I came home and cried. I need flexibility, freedom, Independence, autonomy, variety, intellectual stimulation, and creativity, and emotional calm, not emotional distress.
The jobs that I would be good at require training and education. That’s what I am focusing on now. Then I will stick with careers that are a good fit, work enough time to make enough money, and show my parents I can work and will not always need disability benefits.
Also working remotely and with a flexible schedule where I can make my own structure would be so helpful. I need to finish the career training programs I already bought and buy more certificate and diploma programs in the future. On top of my future degrees I will make sure I have in demand careers so I am never out of work again. I will never work unskilled menial repetitive jobs ever again. I need to prove to my parents, family, and sister that I can work and do not need disability benefits permanently. They are a way to stay poor and dependent on the. Government for the rest of my life. I need them now because. I have no other sources of income coming in and am tired from my cancer treatment and am working on my mental illnesses. My parents also worry about my health insurance coverage since I’m guaranteed government health insurance called masshealth right now because I don’t make any money. You don’t qualify if you make too much money.
Ideally I think I could reach about 25-30 hours a week or its equivalent without burning out. Maybe if I’m in. Really good place 30-40 hours per week or its equivalent but I still think full time will probably burn me out. My family thinks if I can’t handle working full time to get all the employer benefits, ir will be hard tor me to live. It’s true if an employer will not cover my health insurance I would be responsible for self employed insurance and that can a couple hundred every month to start. And life is expensive but if I found creative ways to cut down on living costs like housing and utilities, transportation, and household supplies and so on I could be all right. If I made $ 45,000-$60,000 on a part time basis I think that’s ok. I would be moderately happy if I made $50,000-$100,000 every year. More than that if I worked full time I would be ecstatic.
I am not a natural entrepreneur and I do not have the patience and energy for it but still crave latitude in the workforce. I don’t have the energy to stress myself for constantly finding new clients and I’m not great at interviewing. I need industries where the portfolio, samples, and past work experience speaks for you and maybe passing an assessment to prove you are capable to do the work. I need long term anchor clients as well as short term clients. Also I like.work with a consistent regular workflow.
Also with freelance, you need to save a financial cushion to save for a few months to a year in case it is great or famine.
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