Another one. I am trying to build an audience around my art career for some years now already

And ive built something. Nothing great but I've got a few people who would occasionally buy something from me and who usually like and comment on my posts on Facebook and Instagram. Yet I feel trapped around this. Amongst them are the same people and old friends who remind me of previous versions of me. I want out, but what to do? Begin from zero ?
I would love a fresh start. I'm tired with all this. I feel restricted just by their eyes looking at me.
How should I continue, when my career as an artist and my personal life are so interconnected ..... ????

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Nanori · F

keep that on one side as something else that you don't like but have to do, and start a new line away and anonymous from them for your own spirit

being · 36-40, F

@Nanori we have a limited amount of focus though and energy and I'd rather if I focused on one thing really. Also for my own personal alignment. What would that be though, the smartest thing to do ?

Nanori · F

@being so far as I've known you, you're the kind of person who puts themself first and it's your absolute rule, and when talking about yourself in specific your sanity, ease of mind and freedom of spirit comes first, so I think you already have your answer but are just struggling with bits and pieces of guilt here and there.

being · 36-40, F

@Nanori that feels kind of tough, harsh to read it. I think what you wrote are true in the core, but I am making an equal effort to treat with kindness anyone that crosses my path..
You know thank you because it's really easier to see things as mirrors from the outside ot at least where I am at.
❤️

being · 36-40, F

@Nanori I kind of took it very personally last night, what you wrote, and... since I wrote to you another message on your thread, telling you that I appreciate what you do by staying where you are staying... and I implied that you could as well move away (to Hawaii I said)
And then you wrote this reply for me, and I thought you were implying that I am all about myself and I felt being attacked kind of, and then I took a load on my shoulders that isn't mine, so here I came back to clear things...
I do work, just like you do work, towards bringing goodness to this world.... I just needed to say that dear Nanori, as yesterday, what I said to myself is, that I am a selfish egoist who's running away. But this is one way of seeing things. And I am not this, nor do I deserve the title.
Teaching others and especially young ones that they can self actualise is one thing. And also taking the path of self actualisation is another thing, of great importance as well.
What do you think? Is this all just me .. perhaps do you have something to add here ?
It's a great issue that troubles me and matters to me a lot. We've kind of referred to that again with bits and pieces here and there around SW, for the great importance of staying where it is truly needed and doing the work.
I just hope you don't find my long text irrelevant.