Why was I exposed to a supernatural world
Today I am having a hard day Im going to be 30 in 4 months and my life is a real shit show. Only God knows why they brought me into this world. Maybe in my past lives I did wrong things and in this life I must cry, but nobody knows. I have nothing no husband children money and I never finish my degree. I got no friends. I try everyday to be stronger than the dark forces that torment my life. I never thought that I would have so many enemies in life and all of them doing stupid things with the dark arts , I think the worse thing is the vodoo dols and getting poked. My family and I have survived so many misfortunes and dark things and after years of fighting, I think im finally finished but where im still getting poked and im tired of it. I believe in karma but shes taking sweet time to dish up sweet revenge. But that aside. I just want to move forward in my life, i want to stop feeling frustrated in myself in life with my country and with God. Whats the point of having divine power when I feel they so useless and they just make life miserable becasue they always have some problem that you have to do prayer for. Then we do the prayer and sit and wait like stupids thinking its gonna give us the kick we need to lift us up. I dont know if having divine power is worth it anymore because it comes with alot of stress and is it wrong for me to have the gods of my house be good to my family and myself. I honestly wish I could sell them and take the money and start a new life. Im tired of this life and existing how do I continue living Im gonna be 30 its not old I still got a decent +30 yrs ahead of me but I dunno how to live in this world on this earth and with all the sorrows anymore. Sometimes I think of going to the devil but whats the difference between him and god.can he honestly give me what God cant and if god is just has useless in my life will he be just has useless. I don't believe the devil is evil. I have seen man that worship Gods but are the most evil things to exist. I dont need the devil to do evil things i just want him to make it easier for me to get what I want. And prorect my family from evil people. The problems with God i feel like they block me in my life cause ppl have done things to bind them etc and today in the middle of the year 2022 i ask myself do I really need these Gods in my life. I wait for them everyday for the past 29years of my life to come and just be Good Gods and Im asking myself now im I still gonna be waiting for them? What becomes of me without them and will I be happier without them? And how do I live with myself? Im so unhappy in my life and i wish i had the power to change it by myself without god. I really just want to start a new life fresh and clean and just be happy. Is that so wrong just to want to be happy in life? I do have dreams and goals but sometimes I ask myself maybe its unrealistic because of the lemons life keep handing me. Im tired honestly of my life I sometimes just wanna take the poison and call it quits but what about my parents I worked hard to see them have a good life. But even they feel frustrated and miserable and its the worst thing to see them like that. I DONT know what to do anymore I feel confused and conflicted in my sitution and overwhelmed and I honestly just wish for A powerful positive change in my life.
