I Am In Hell

I have ulcers from too much stress which hurt when I sleep at night and it's hard as hell to control my anger when I'm so used to being driven by it. I feel weak without my drive but I know if I do get angry it'll just aggrivate my ulcers worse. It's hard to sit by and willfully feel weak and forcing your self to not do what you want.

This page is a permanent link to the reply below and its nested replies. See all post replies »

CoffeeFirst · 56-60, F

You are so used to living on adrenaline, you don't know any other way. That's understandable. But your body is paying the price. Self-control is not weak; in fact, it's very strong and brave. You have to have courage to change, if you want to. Both DH and I have gone through hell in our own respective ways in the last 10 years. It really can get better. --DW

This comment is hidden. Show Comment

CoffeeFirst · 56-60, F

Is that persona working for you?? While there may be some positives, it also sounds like there are negatives to yourself. It's okay to be quiet, slow, even sad or afraid sometimes.