I've struggled with body image issues for years. I used to be scared to see the number 100 on my scale so if I got to 99 pounds I would stop eating until it went down.
Overtime the fear subsided and I've always accredited the healing to God because It went away without me having to do any work to get there.
Now I am about 110 pounds and while I am ok with it, it's a little uncomfortable at times. Also, I always seem to see what no one else sees. I feel like I have a round full face and that it's too big, but EVERYONE tells me it's so small. I also feel like I'm not skinny anymore...not "fat" but not skinny anymore either. Maybe average? Which also makes me uncomfortable because I feel like fat is next. I feel like my arms, legs and hips are getting big and it scares me to think what I will look like when I'm older.
When I'm at the store or out in public and see a girl who's super skinny, even though I know in my heart she doesn't look healthy I still feel like I'm fat next to her. Like I should change myself. And there's nothing wrong with being heavy set as long as you're healthy but for whatever reason it scares me to think of myself that way. I pray that I and others won't go through it forever and that we are healed in the name of Jesus🙏🏾
