I hate being a female sometimes

So I did my hair last night with the waves for my live stream last night and woke up and it was even more prettier so I decided to put a big bread in the front of it go off to the side. I literally suck at doing hair and coming up with stuff to do outside the whole just waving it or straighten it. Normally if I do get the balls to try something I always get anxiety thinking it looks dumb so I end up taking it down. Ugh. I hate being females sometimes and so Jelly of the girls who can do their hair in all these cute styles. Just like a messy bun or cute pony tail. Mine makes me look like I big ass forehead and a homeless person all in one. 😭😭😭😭