I Struggle With My Body Image

I'm always chubby and large breasted even when I was a baby. Recently I put on weight that attracted lot of bad comments. I have developed some kind of people hating and self isolating ever since. I try hard to loose weight by working out or dieting. But my job and frequent illness messes up my exercise schedule so I can't loose weight fast. I always wanted to try latest fashion trend but my body gets in the way. I hate my body especially my breast which makes me look fat and old.