lipstick on a pig

these past month i was feeling confident not until i got my haircut i feel ugly and i start wearing makeup this past few weeks i finally start to have a little confident sadly it doesnt work anymore on me its just feels like im pushing myself to accept it but im not feeling pretty anymore it feels like myself putting a lipstick on a pig i feel so sh1tty and i keep wearing facemask on so i dont feel ugly when someone takes a picture of me it just so annoying seeing my face i have double chin like i just want to do on a diet but cant stop eating i feel like a pig i want to change this is not what i wanted.