I Have Body Dysmorphic Disorder

I found out last week I finally got diagnosed. I just wished I was normal. When I was 5 I wanted an boob job and I thought I was fat. I struggled ever since. I had anorexia for 11 years. I don’t struggle as much now. Im an lot better. My parents lacked parenting skills , they aren’t bad people, they just had no idea. I don’t blame them for all my problems , but they did cause me an lot of childhood trauma. I have an lot of trauma from other people too. Im paying out an lot of money to change my body to make me feel comfortable in it without going back to doing harmful things that I did in my past or trying end my life because I hate myself. Cosmetic Surgery and pills can be beautiful things , I always supported them as long as you aren’t doing it to make someone fall in love with you or being forced into it or bullied into doing it , as long as it’s for yourself , completely your own choice then it can be such an beautiful thing and I do 100% think people should get at least 2 years of therapy before doing that , as an lot of issues can be sorted out whilst waiting at least wait an at least 2 years to definitely make sure it’s what they want , it depends really , this is just my opinion on it , sometimes people can’t wait as long as I did and I still 100% support them as we aren’t the same , therapy doesn’t help everyone learn to love themselves , I’ve had therapy for 4 years , wanted this since I was 5, I know I definitely want this for myself , nobody is influencing my choices. It just gives me someone I can truly open up to about my problems.