I'm a boy into big girls. Is that okay?

I am going to turn 18 and for the past 2 years now I gained an interest in big women. I want to let go of this and other fetishes because this makes me look creepy, and besides I'm in love with my cute friend. I just can't help but admire how they appreciate being so big and such. I just want to flirt with one, cuddle one, make out with one. That'll be hot. If only I'm allowed to have a big cutie as a friend. I'm also lost rn. I hate being a teen.