Looking to find someone to chat with

Hi I'm new to SW or let's just say...I created the account long ago but never got the courage to post. I have been in the closet for quite sometime now.. Coming out of it is not an option, my unfulfilled desires have started to take a toll on me... So hoping to find someone.. I am fed up of putting up a straight family man potrait, I do love my family a lot but I wish I could get over my desperation.
Im a bottom and always wanted to be treated like a girl.