I Am a Submissive Woman
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Someone asked me today why do they think I became a submissive women? What drew me to the BDSM lifestyle. Why do I prefer to submit to men rather than dominate them? What do I look for in a Dom?
These were all questions that made me go hmmmmm.
I actually had to think about it, because I don't remember when the role of a submissive woman attracted me. Coming from someone who has been abused by men, and raped, to put myself in a submissive role, it was something that if not with the right partner can be very bad. And that is when it dawned on me, it wasn't a particular event that made want to become a submissive, it was the person.
I've always been interested in BDSM, even before 50 shades of Grey. I use to be on fetlife, but I would have never found fetlife and opened my eyes to the BDSM world if it wasn't for my ex. He was the one who introduced me to the lifestyle. When he first suggested it to me, I was offended, as he knew what I had been through, and to ask me to give up on making choices when it comes to sex, and life I couldn't believe what he was asking me.
However when he pointed out that I wasn't giving up control, I was actually controlling it. I was giving permission to allow someone else to take on all the responsibilities, the changes, the everything. To have someone devoted to me completely. To serve someone. To want to please them in every way possible.
I liked the dynamic of the Daddy Dom/baby girl relationship. I have always been drawn to older men, men my age were very immature at this point in my life. I had boyfriends but nothing ever seemed right, the sex was extremely boring, I actually hated the idea of sex. Unless someone went down on me, I never had an orgasm unless I played with myself. I knew I wanted something different, but didn't know what that was exactly. Until I met him.
He opened up my eyes to a whole new world (insert Disney reference as often as I can) . It was a bit overwhelming at first, but I did what he told me, I kept my mind opened to it, and soon I realized that I could never imagine myself in a “Vanilla” relationship again. For a long time I thought I was a switch, because I liked the idea of dominating someone, telling them what to do, caring only about their pleasure. But I realized very soon on, that I would probably never be able to be in that type of role.
I am a baby girl, a bottom, a submissive, and a BRAT. I live the lifestyle as often as I can. I am not just this way in the bedroom. I am very submissive in my everyday lifestyle with my husband. He is a very dominate man. The look in his eyes, the way he loves, the way he is devoted to me. It is a feeling I can't quite explain. I love that he makes a LOT of the choices, I don't have to think much when I am with him. It is easy with him.
I am very devoted to him, his needs, his pleasures, his desires. I love surrendering to him. Giving him myself to do with as he pleases. I trust him more than I can put into words. I follow his rules, and if I don't I accept his punishments. He has taught me so much. He has opened my eyes to even more than I could have imagined when I got introduced to the lifestyle.
I am a brat of course, I love pushing buttons and seeing how far I can go until he puts a stop to it. I love being his baby girl. We have an 11 year age difference. He truly is the definition of a Daddy Dom. He is very dominate. He is exactly what I need. The authority that strikes, the looks, the hands. Oh man! Yes I am very much into him and I am so glad to be part of this world.
