Being called masculine names has always annoyed me...

I know I'm not a very traditionally feminine woman. My body is tough and sturdy, my voice is deep for a chick, I don't wear makeup, comb my hair or wear feminine cut clothing often. But damnit, I love being a woman. I love being a strong woman and I don't think that is masculine or emasculating. I don't always feel comfortable with performative femininity and I'd rather go have a dirty, sweaty adventure in sneakers.

I'm sensitive about it because I've been teased my whole life but I feel perfectly happy being a tomboy. I get the best of it all tbh.

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LunadelobosIAMTHEDRAGON · F

I am a fan. I have been in your former incarnation here, and I can't see that changing.
Those who criticize: it is a reflection of their character, not you.

I was told by a very wise and kind woman: In this world, people are very intent on putting me, in their own boxes, they fear and are threatened by 'differences', and lord oh lord, am I DIFFERENT.
I am a shy person, but can be very exuberant, kind of like I am *HIGH* if you met me when I am truly LIT, when I am ELATED, in some 'moment' :D

I am changing in ways I'd never thought I'd change.
My life has has upheavals and losses, I'd not known in my nightmares.
Yet, here I am, still dreaming, still moving, albeit at a snail's pace, often terrified,
mostly only finding *MIRRORS* in my books.

The less I put credence into their opinions, the better I fare, but it's excruciatingly literally painful, to be an empath in this world.
(Normies, just can't GET IT, what it means to FEEL everything... Well, it is the highest of highs and the lowest of lows and it can happen within a moment, it's like nothing else in this world.)
.....So, off I go to dream and reconnect with myself and recharge:
into my books, nature, and music and cycling, and my precious fur babies.

ScreamingFox

@LunadelobosIAMTHEDRAGON I think different is beautiful. It's what makes life interesting and educational!

LunadelobosIAMTHEDRAGON · F

@ScreamingFox

I think different is beautiful.

Thank you so much for saying that.
*My dad or mom never said it to me in all of my life, none of my family has come to think of it,
neither did my (now ex) husband.*

I am reacclimating to these sensations, thoughts, memories, EVERYTHING, pertaining to being in my body, in my skin.
Odd how the most painful of trials can bring me closer to who I was born to be. I suppose, I am r-e learning what it means to be ME.

You know, you are the only person I open up to like THIS in the wide open space of SW, as opposed to PMs.
Your frankness and vulnerability, it is inspirational and contagious.

Like seeks like and responds, like a flower to the sun (or, the Moonflower to the night) 🤗🩵