Working together.. commuting to school.. Singing love songs together.. pretending it is all just for fun. Driving through the most beautiful scenery green and foggy in the morning
You came to work without makeup that day, and I saw your real face.. freckles and pale skin.. subtle dark circles under your perfect brown eyes you always thought were so boring, but i couldn't look away from your face.
I've never seen such a beautiful thing. I remember thinking of those who got to see you without makeup regularly and were so lucky.but that would be the only time you took your mask off in front of me.
You asked me why I was with her and I said sometimes I don't even know, and I asked you why were you with him, and you said, because he's not cruel like the others had been.
If I could do it all over again.. we never would have made it to school one of those beautiful winter mornings. For I would find a way to kiss all your makeup away, and wherever your lipstick kisses would have landed on my body, I would have traced and got one or two of them tattooed.
But now I have to stare at the aching blank spaces in my life, wondering whatever happened to you and what we could have been if I wasn't so sure at the time.. that we'd always have tomorrow to find where our connection might lead.
There is no tomorrow, only fear or courage. Choose courage.. please.. with my heart begging please on it's knees, don't be like me.
