I Am Attracted To Girls

So the girl I fell hardest for was my best friend once. She was the one I first opened up to. I was truly in love with her for about 5 years. We had so many ups and downs in our friendship. Obviously I wanted to have her as my gf but we have only been friends. I confessed to her and well she didn't take it badly but she said I can only love you as a friend. The emotion I felt at that time was a strange mixture of deep pain and gladness. After she transferred to another school, the distance between us grew up to great heights. But we're still friends and sometimes we text each other and stuff. Haven't seen her for a long while now. Fortunately I'm starting to move on.

The thing I felt so deeply then, I dunno even though it was so painful and it made me feel so weak and helpless at times, it was simply wonderful and amazing. I.. I truly feel alive because of that feeling I experienced. And I do not regret it at all. I don't know how to explain it.. It was just.. Heavenly. I am totally glad that I was able to experience such a beautiful pain. I want to cherish it forever. And I won't whine just cuz it was only an unrequited feeling. I believe I will fall in love again someday and hopefully I'd be able to receive it as well.