I seem to be in a perverted tailspin.

So I have been divorced for 21 months now. I thought I would at least met some one by now. Since it has been quite some time, I get more and more horny. This starts a tailspin, as the more I go without the more kinky I get in my thoughts and desires. The problem with that is I start coming across as more "pervy", and I certainly don't mean to be that way. I just get so into my own fantasies, and the stuff I would love to be doing, that I guess I go overboard a bit. It is a vicious cycle. I mean some of my thoughts are just so much more uninhibited than earlier in my life. I guess I would love to do some of it all again. Makes me crazy. Damn. Maybe I buy a sex doll....lol. If I have offended anyone on here, than I am sorry.