Put myself out there, for the first time in six years and was politely turned down.

As, the title says. After being in a relationship (unfaithful on her end) for six years... I finally put myself out there and became vulnerable.... I, made an advance towards someone and they politely turned me down. Sitting in my bed, knowing full well that my ex who I still live with is being satisfied on a regular basis and I'm not..... fucking hurts...in my soul. Not trying to be all, ( poor me..why me ..blah blah blah) but it hurts ... It hurts to know that I've sacrificed the last six years of my life for someone who truly didn't deserve my faithfulness, dedication to one and that I watched it happen (per say).... The signs, were all there from the beginning.... Within six to nine months after moving in together, she caught the eye of the neighbor and knowing this.... I had told myself, I trust her .... She'll turn him down and eventually come to me and let me know ..... That, never happened..... All of the years where I wasn't around for eight to twelve hours a day or night.... She had, the time of here life. Great orgasms, I'm sure they connected on other levels as well.... But, she kept me around.... Working, paying the bills and being responsible.... Responsible, for someone why didn't deserve it.... She, didn't deserve my dedication to our relationship...And, when I fucked up because of all of the pent up(sexual) aggression that's what she used as ammunition to continue her actions when I was at work..... Now, I sit in a room the size of a jail cell... slowly putting myself back together... I really wish, the woman that I came onto tonight was single..... She, would've gotten to see my heart and soul not just what is on the outside......