This might sound so shitty 😂
But I have used men for sex and attention because I know I can't expect anything else. Even after investing time into someone and getting to know them, there always comes the moment when their attention is diverted elsewhere to someone prettier and who will give more.
When I was married, I put my heart and soul into "us" but before long it was just about him.
I see it here often, men making their rounds. I've seen it in real life, the disappearing act of a man who thinks he can do better without ever giving me a chance to be vulnerable.
I've also seen the concept of what a man should be shift over and over. All I can fathom now is all the things a man will never be to me.
A man will never be my safety, my support or an honest friend. A man will never be devoted and he will never sacrifice his ego no matter how honestly I need him. A man will never be strong or protective. A man will never stay.
This is not how I want to feel about men and I am not a man hater as I have an incredible son who I'm raising to be a good guy, ironically, without a male role model in his life. Because sadly so many men don't want to be fathers to their own children and definitely not to a child their silly cock didn't make.
I like men as people and I'm very attracted to them, but I can only think of a few I have known that were actually considerate, strong and caring humans.
I don't care about the "not all men" crap and I don't care about everything a woman has done to hurt you. People are people.
But literally everyone who has read about human history knows how women have been treated. How hard we've fought to get an education and equal pay and rights men just inherently had. And how we still fight.
So as harsh as this sounds, I don't see why I would ever invite a man into my heart. I don't see why I would ever open myself to the pain of the excuse we call a biological urge.
Yes MFers we do know better now. Yes I do expect humans to be evolved after thousands of years of making the same dumb mistakes.
To avoid the disappointment of knowing better but still letting myself become disappointed, all I can say is, penis is amazing. Otherwise, men are just people and most people bore me with their shallow and predictable behavior.
When I was married, I put my heart and soul into "us" but before long it was just about him.
I see it here often, men making their rounds. I've seen it in real life, the disappearing act of a man who thinks he can do better without ever giving me a chance to be vulnerable.
I've also seen the concept of what a man should be shift over and over. All I can fathom now is all the things a man will never be to me.
A man will never be my safety, my support or an honest friend. A man will never be devoted and he will never sacrifice his ego no matter how honestly I need him. A man will never be strong or protective. A man will never stay.
This is not how I want to feel about men and I am not a man hater as I have an incredible son who I'm raising to be a good guy, ironically, without a male role model in his life. Because sadly so many men don't want to be fathers to their own children and definitely not to a child their silly cock didn't make.
I like men as people and I'm very attracted to them, but I can only think of a few I have known that were actually considerate, strong and caring humans.
I don't care about the "not all men" crap and I don't care about everything a woman has done to hurt you. People are people.
But literally everyone who has read about human history knows how women have been treated. How hard we've fought to get an education and equal pay and rights men just inherently had. And how we still fight.
So as harsh as this sounds, I don't see why I would ever invite a man into my heart. I don't see why I would ever open myself to the pain of the excuse we call a biological urge.
Yes MFers we do know better now. Yes I do expect humans to be evolved after thousands of years of making the same dumb mistakes.
To avoid the disappointment of knowing better but still letting myself become disappointed, all I can say is, penis is amazing. Otherwise, men are just people and most people bore me with their shallow and predictable behavior.
41-45, F
