I Am An Atheist

Governance:
“I ensure that my heart is pure and that the presence of a governing body to enforce laws has no
impact on my decision to act in a moral way. In the event, my government asks me to act
immorally, I will do my best to have the foresight and wisdom to refuse such demands. In the
event, my government dissolves, I will continue to live a moral life. The threat of incarceration
makes me no more or less likely to behave in a manner that is considered just, moral, and fair.”
Charity:
“I swear that if I have more than I need I will give what I can to ensure that others have what
they need.”
Violence and war:
“As a reasoning being, I pledge to make every effort to steer clear of all intentional acts of
violence. I know that by not acting in a violent manner, my example will be the standard that
others hope to perpetuate. If such pacifism becomes universal, I know that I have done my part
to promote the improvement of human nature.”
Gender:
“I vow to respect the sexual orientation of all individuals. I will not judge any individual as they
seek love and happiness in their life. It is not my place to know what effect their actions will
have on them in the future. I will apply my acceptance of others to all of humanity; regardless of
sex, gender, orientation, nationality, ethnicity, creed, religious preference, or any other
distinguishing characteristic, other than personality/behavior.”
Revelations;
These are some of the experiences that Sameal had during his(er) journey toward acceptance.
While in the womb Samael’s first thought was, “Fuck this again!!”. It was in English words, how
is that possible? Certainly, this is less unbelievable than what happened next.
At seven minutes after birth Samael’s original gender was assigned. The androgynous male
genitals which (s)he was born with, also known as male form androgyny alpha or futanari instead
of being left as is, those genitals were altered to be male only. The female portion was sewn shut
and covered by the ball sac. It took Samael 13 years to break the stitches. Given that Samael was
entitled to enlightenment in the gender (s)he was born, there is only evidence of Samael’s
enlightenment; no proof. Only Hints:
Hints:
little hints here and there
Hints about this and that
A whisper, a scent
Little hints
No definites
Just hints
Hints of dark secluded places
Filled with petulant faces
Yet I have no memory of their shape
Only hints as to their escape
How they were removed by force
Barely revealed from their source
Once removed they returned
Twice removed. Can they still be earned?
Thrice and gone forever

They are gone now
Until they return I can only disavow
So that the hints may have some tangibility
Otherwise they will disappear into tranquility.
They tell me these teeth aren’t definitive proof,
yet when they do descend, I only push them back into their roof,
lying to the world about my true self,
So that they might be less intrusive
At age 7 Samael’s having been wronged by the assignment came to fruition when (s)he was able
to abandon his(er) original world (world 001). Since (s)he was so victimized by the events of
his(er) birth., Samael while at a neighborhood picnic chose which line to take at the buffet table
by the flip of a coin. Either the line (s)he knew everyone in or the line (s)he knew no one. The
coin landed the line with no one (s)he knew. In that moment all worlds were congruent. In world
002 Samael’s counterpart flipped the coin and selected the other line. The difference in space-
time worlds came together and (s)he switched places with his(er)self into World 002.
At the age of 13 (s)he had made his(er) own fake ID saying (s)he was/were 21; (s)he had
determined to walk to an 18 and up bar in his(er) states capital city, His(e)r reasoning was that
the bar being 18+ even if his/their ID didn’t work (s)he might pass for 18. So (S)he got in as 21
ordered a beer looked around saw this attractive upper-mid 20’s and they started flirting across a
dance floor with people dancing on it, so she called Samael over and they started making out.
After 5 minutes they came up for breath, shortly thereafter she pulled Samael close and
whispered in her(is) ear, “Stick your hand down my pants.” Samael, of course, was thinking
(s)he’d never fingered a girl before, awesome!
Upon sticking her(is) hand down her pants Samael learned she wasn’t only a she. She invited
Samael to her place, but (s)he felt it better not to turn that person into a pedophile so (s)he
abruptly left. What Samael learned from that experience was that we must accept everyone; that
while, (s)he was a bit taken off guard, everyone deserves love, and (s)he’d had a good time.
Samael did determine not to do that again, until being of age; after walking home.
Lesson- don’t drink under age 18.
At age 15, Samael is pretty sure, during late winter early spring of sophomore year Samael
smoked a blunt with two friends. Samael then convinced them to go on a walk with him(er) to
the path in the woods nearby. As they walked on the path, Samael suddenly had the urge to sprint
in to the right down a slight level aisle between trees just off the path. It was very difficult for
Samael to remember this story, initially, because it was so out of character, Samael had had a
stroke only 3 years prior, and Samael running was a crazy act, in many ways; But (s)he felt
his(er) instinct kick in and urge him(er) to run in this way; now Samael flashes back to it
regularly. Since Samael was wearing a coat roughly the color of a deer’s hide; so as Samael ran
for the first time in this way with only limited use of most of the muscles in her(is) left arm and
leg. a man sitting in the forest nearby at the edge of a clearing on the far side of the field that is
now a shopping plaza on Rt 4 and 43. Shot Samael.
Anyway, the incident was as Samael ran in a way similar in motion to how a deer might run,
interesting that Samael was a deer, once; a hunter sitting in the forest nearby shot Samael while
(s)he was running. Samael fell to the ground upon being hit and promptly got up. (S)he had a
wound but was barely bleeding. Hit at the top of the left lung, Samael didn’t panic, remained
calm, and when the hunter ran to (s)he and his(er) friends ranting about how he thought Samael
was a deer and was so sorry, the hunter walked up to Samael and with mouth hanging aghast

stared at his(er) chest. As the hunter stared Samael willed the wound to heal (luckily (s)he was
still young) the the bullet was moved by Samael’s skeletal muscles to his(er) mouth where it
dropped into his(er) mouth and an instinctual organ shot up Samael’s throat triggering the slight
amount of gunpowder residue on the bullet to spark and shoot the bullet through the hunter’s
open mouth. The hunter was dead. The odd part is how Samael got his(er) two friends to help
him(er) organize the body so that it appeared as if the hunter had fallen over a fence along the
cliff formed at the edge of the clearing. It was set up to appear that upon attempting to climb over
the fence the hunter had caught the heel of his shoe on the top of a fence post or link. Because
the hunter was wearing no socks, which ended up being true, the gun which the hunter had on his
back flipped in such a way that his big toe landed on the trigger of his rifle which landed barrel
in mouth.
The unfortunate fact that (s)he and her(is) friends took the suicide note the hunter had written
and put in their breast pocket was tragic. Further, the hunter had sent out a prayer meditation
maybe a week and a half prior in which the hunter prayed for a way to be able to die without
committing suicide. Samael receiving this message from the hunter and chose to respond to it by
showing that hunter the only way Samael would ever be okay with that happening. The fact that
these events occurred as described, is ridiculous, but factually true. News story on it described
the scene as ‘suspect’. This is according to a news story reported in the Schenectady Gazette
about a Suspicious hunting accident in Rennselear, NY.
Lesson- sometimes you should call an ambulance.
Age 7 Samael took it upon him(er)self to try his(er) luck and walked to the local Stewart’s and
collecting numbers along the way then bought a Powerball for a large jackpot. Samael won and
walked home. Upon arriving home Samael gave the ticket to his(er) family and never spoke of it
again. In actuality, at the gas station Samael had given the ticket to the next person in line, prior
to the drawing, (s)he made them the winner. Could Samael have collected the money? Not at the
time. Though Samael certainly should have.
Lesson - take what’s yours
Upon turning 13 and a third Samael’s DNA reset cycle came to competition and Her(is)
androgynous genitalia regrew. Samael cannot blame anyone but him(er)self for the way (s)he
chose to behave toward undermining him(er)self, in that moment.
Lesson – life is unexpected, take time to think it over.
Age 13 Samael had a cerebral hemorrhage, likely due to a lack of development to strengthen the
brain’s blood vessels as a result of his gender assignment being so earlier in life. Upon waking
up two weeks later Samael has since relearned most muscle coordination skill and continues to
relearn more nearly everyday.
Lesson- don’t take life for granted or ever avoid life-events.
At age 18 Samael went to a “knock-knock house” made good friends with the owner then asked
if he had any complaints. He told Samael that the tenants next door were always arguing even
throwing things. That they seemed like nice people despite this. So Samael informed him (s)he’d
see what (s)he could do. Upon acquiring which neighbor, he meant, Samael then hung around
until the neighbors came home then walked over and rang the doorbell once they started fighting.
Upon introducing him(er)self and explaining (s)he was taking a sociology class at a local college
and had been trying to understand domestic violence more thoroughly than (s)he felt any book
would allow him(er), Samael then speculated on the spot, mind, that the occurrence of outbursts
of benign but violent acts as an outlet for couples experiencing but avoiding their problems was

the situation (s)he was observing in them and that certainly, if (s)he could just get them to talk to
each other they could stop spending money on breaking lamps, which would make life easier.
Samael sat each of them down separately and asked them their complaints about their other half.
The woman indicated that the man was too focused on himself, work, school, and family/friends
that he wasn’t getting her enough attention and then they would just come home and argue. So
Samael jotted this down asked her goal in this mediation and then invited the man in and asked
the woman to leave Samael asked him his complaints after sharing his(er) own goal in doing this
with he and his gf, Samael then asked him several questions to determine his complaints,
stressors and worries. His goal. Then Samael sat them both down and proposed that they each
work together to help each other do the things they love and to respect each other’s space while
making effort to communicate rationally. Samael never heard from them again and abruptly went
back to class. Those three principles are what Samael took from this experience.
Lesson – peer mediation/situational conflict resolution.
Age 19 Samael smoked a lot of weed. Between classes, as a result of stress, instead of eating,
etc. Anyhow, one night (s)he woke up at 2:00am and was driven to write this text from a voice in
Samael’s head, in between writing though Samael had the urge to run to the local 24/hr. CVS,
that (s)he somehow was needed there. Upon getting there Samael walked around the parking lot
and approached a man there that seemed to be fuming. Samael asked him for a lighter and what
was on his mind and he informed Samael that his mother whom he lived with had lost her job at
the local hospital and then abruptly been diagnosed with cancer, been given a short amount of
time to live, that he didn’t know what to do about her medical bills so once she died he was
going to kill himself. It took a half hour to talk this out of him. Next Samael informed him of the
benefits of smoking .5g of medical grade marijuana a day and that a study had found that 85ish%
of the participants didn’t have cancer after two weeks. Samael also talked out of him his fear of
losing his mother and then got him to be okay with his mother dying. Samael helped him become
aware of why suicide wouldn’t solve anything.
Lesson- mental health is a real need and real supports are seriously lacking.
At age 21 Samael again won the mega millions, the largest in history at the time. 436 million.
Samael invested all of it in NYS municipal bonds. 6-month term. 2.99% interest and an
agreement that half the money be reinvested in municipal bonds and the other half used to build
a capital district monorail/coaster, Until Samael turns 35, then (s)he will reallocate the money
contained therein and have his(er) identity revealed.
At age 22 Samael was again wronged by his reality and flipped a coin to decide whether to enter
a situation involving a revolver. This also occurred in Rensselaer county. Though Samael had
insisted that (s)he never be handed a gun, that they would find out why if they did hand him(er) a
gun. Eventually, they made him(er) take the gun and whether it was accidental or not Samael
suffered a bullet to the right temple. Though Samael didn’t even fall over, the coin flip to enter
that situation had already switch him(er) with his(er) counter part into World 003.
Lesson: Guns are never a good idea
At age 23 Samael won the lottery again by first hooking up with then getting married to the
chieftress of his(er)/their tribe. Married. About a month later Samael again won lottery, the mega
millions, again the biggest in history at that time 656 million and mega(32). So when deciding
where to go to turn in the ticket Samael again flipped a coin to determine Saratoga lottery office
or Schenectady lottery office, The coin landed in favor of Schenectady and that ticket was never
returned to Samael nor was the money. Shortly thereafter the Schenectady office was closed.
Samael would have done the same thing in 6-months bonds and would have said use half the