Nobody likes the dark creatures 🖤But I love you all

@SW-User Thank you for always responding with love and an open heart. You’re seriously the only being I know that understands the most. I always appreciate your realness. Think the world of you lady 🖤

@SledgeHammer Scrubbing someone else’s actual shit off the walls of your deceased Mama’s house will definitely bring on some emotions. Being dumped by the one you loved because you can’t give them enough and they won’t help. Having an 8 year old child, raising him alone and going through all his phases and changes confused because you have no one to talk to, no one with experience to guide you because they’re all dead. My friend with cancer asking me to fill in as Mom when she passes. Washing my laundry in the sink for weeks because Lowes keep canceling on me 3x now. Being in the town I grew up in, that’s now gentrified and packed with angry people when I desperately want to be back in SoCal sunshine.

Crying alone for almost 38 years now…

It’s always going to be a struggle, that’s okay, acceptance is the hardest part. Everyone I love dies or leaves and it’s out of my control. Still thankful for my strength and my son and my dog and all the good that seems to fall in my lap these days. Again, not without suffering, just wish it wasn’t alone. I wish some love was coming in.

@RebelFox I cant imagine exactly what it is you're going through... but your open mind that captures the good apart from the bad when nothing seems right..... is admirable

@Teggy Thank you. It’s rare hun. I’m so alone.

@RebelFox I’ve watched your posts and followed you on here through your journey.

I can’t fathom for the life of me why you haven’t found your person.

You’re smart, strong, to the point and as a bonus pretty.

😞❤️

Ya deserve soooo much more then you know.

@Teggy I don’t know. I surely have things to work on, but I don’t understand why so alone. I believe love would help. It would feel so good.

I fear I may touch on being a victim sometimes because I’m desperate for love, like I accept mistreatment because I believe in helping others through their own shadows. But still I’m confused why that’s deterred something that could be mutually beneficial and full of love, giving, sharing and kisses.

I don’t know 😭