My drinking story
Inspired by some on here struggling with addiction.
I can't remember my first drink etc but at 17 I headed to my local to get away from a row I indoors between my sister and mum. I sat in the pub with my customary pint and thought "Hmm this drinking on your own isn't a good sign". I was 17 already a known regular in that pub.
By my mid 20s many comments were made about my drinking. I had a reputation among colleagues, family, friends etc. I'd got married, a mortgage and then a kid.
I remember the responsibility completely overwhelming me and my drinking became the solace to help me cope.
This continued day in day out through my 30s. Then when 40 a drunken row with a colleague convinced me to do something. I promised him, my boss and my wife I'd cut down. Just drink "normally" ; again! I'd never drunk normally but hey I thought I could.
In a year I went from a daily drinker to an unpredictable binge drinker. Where I'd previously normally sunk about 12 pints a day now on a binge it was 20 or more and I was a real mess.
One day I was thrown out a regular haunt by the landlady who told me to "Fuck off and sort yourself out".
I drove to a cliff and willed myself to jump. I couldn't so drove to another pub and drank another pint. As a I finished that I determined to go home and not drink anymore. I got up and took my empty glass to the bar where the barmaid was already pouring my next. I took it back to my seat hating it, myself and knowing I still needed a few more.
That wasn't my last drink but only a matter of days remained in my drinking career...
To be continued...
https://similarworlds.com/addiction/alcoholic/4543560-My-recovery-story-See-my-drinking-story-post-for-how-I
I can't remember my first drink etc but at 17 I headed to my local to get away from a row I indoors between my sister and mum. I sat in the pub with my customary pint and thought "Hmm this drinking on your own isn't a good sign". I was 17 already a known regular in that pub.
By my mid 20s many comments were made about my drinking. I had a reputation among colleagues, family, friends etc. I'd got married, a mortgage and then a kid.
I remember the responsibility completely overwhelming me and my drinking became the solace to help me cope.
This continued day in day out through my 30s. Then when 40 a drunken row with a colleague convinced me to do something. I promised him, my boss and my wife I'd cut down. Just drink "normally" ; again! I'd never drunk normally but hey I thought I could.
In a year I went from a daily drinker to an unpredictable binge drinker. Where I'd previously normally sunk about 12 pints a day now on a binge it was 20 or more and I was a real mess.
One day I was thrown out a regular haunt by the landlady who told me to "Fuck off and sort yourself out".
I drove to a cliff and willed myself to jump. I couldn't so drove to another pub and drank another pint. As a I finished that I determined to go home and not drink anymore. I got up and took my empty glass to the bar where the barmaid was already pouring my next. I took it back to my seat hating it, myself and knowing I still needed a few more.
That wasn't my last drink but only a matter of days remained in my drinking career...
To be continued...
https://similarworlds.com/addiction/alcoholic/4543560-My-recovery-story-See-my-drinking-story-post-for-how-I
