LuvsBigHugs

Spanking has always been very sexual for me. That is to say that the ideas, memories, fantasies and stories i heard were very arousing. In my formative years, the actual experience of being spanked was humiliating, painful, and very traumatic. My stepdad, (we called him Dad) was a loving, and kind man, but a very strict catholic from a large family. His views on discipline in the home were rigid and once he decided we were going to have a spanking, there was no negotiation or recourse. Once he decided one of a combination of us were to be spanked my sister and I (and even our Mom at times) learned to be waiting in his room, bare from the waist to sock tops, and prepared to be lectured, scolded, then lay over his lap and lift our bottoms for what was almost always a long, hard, bare bottom spanking. He was never loud or harsh in language however he was a pipefitter by trade and his hands were as bad as any implement I've ever been spanked with. He would spank well past tears, and keep spanking until all the fight had gone out of us, then a little longer just to make certain the lesson was learned. I was NOT turned on when this was happening. But the thoughts it provoked later as i lay on my stomach in bed in just my pj top made things happen in me that made me think for a long time that i was mentally ill. Though I'd met others like myself (spankos, including but far from limited to, my sister and two of our cousins) I thought i was the only one that had an obsession with it. I developed early, and by the time I was physically mature enough, I was ejaculating on the bed after a bare bottom trip over Dads lap, and had the same experience after pretty much any spanking contact. I was not sexually attracted to Dad in any way. it was the circumstance, situation, power exchange, and odd non sexual yet oh so erotic intimacy that comes with a spanking. Mom spanked also; bare bottoms, over her knee, with her hand and hairbrush, but she never really took it too seriously. She only spanked when Dad wasn't around and only after she'd had a couple glasses of wine, gotten into her nighty and was tipsy. Mom's spankings usually ended with everyone giggling and joking and with hugs. There are many details and other stories if you ever care to know about them. I am mostly Top now, and have been fortunate enough to have spanked many bottoms over the years. I have many experiences and I'd love to share them, and hear about yours, as well as share fantasies! Cheers to all reading this!