Latentxd

I wish I could crossdress more often but still have kids at home so it would be awkward. I don't get any support from my wife to usually, the only chance I get to be feminine is when I travel solo. A few friends know that I cross dress as well as my doctor who is very supportive. She is encouraging me to seek a reproductive endocrinologist to talk about hormones. Some of my earliest memories are of wanting to be a girl. Once, my mother was getting ready to go shopping (in the late 50's) and I was watching her. She asked me if I wanted some lipstick and I said yes. I was in heaven! In Junior High and High School I kept a stash of makeup that I would play with when I was alone for long periods of time. I ended up purging my stash when I got engaged. I didn't tell my wife about my desires to be more feminine until we had stopped being sexually intimate and I thought I wanted to explore that side of me. She was not a fan. I started to wear panties and got Mani-Pedi's with polish (color on my toes and clear on my fingers). She's grown tolerant of this behavior but not supportive. She will ask me to help her fix her nails when they break which I see as a step forward.

As of a few years ago, I started getting makeovers and dressing (but never going out in public) when I was in Las Vegas. Most years I'm there 4-6 times for conferences and Foodie trips with friends. I've started to go shopping for clothes, makeup and shoes. Whenever I'm there solo I'll dress feminine when in my hotel. I have made friends with the woman that does my nails and she keeps my stash of clothes and shoes. I also see a woman to get a full body wax whenever I visit. It's not cheap but I love the way I feel afterwards and don't have any stubble issues as with shaving. Last year I went for a makeover and it was fabulous! I found a Trans woman that did makeovers for men, women and m2f crossdressers and transpeople. She used airbrush makeup on me and I was shocked when I first saw myself. She let me hang around her shop for as long as I wanted before converting back to male mode. I will be doing that again! She tried to talk me into going out but I'm concerned about my voice.

Anyway, that's me in a nut shell. I'm here to support others like me and get support. Would love to maybe meet up with others for support.