Captain

My kids are grown up and I'm now on a pension but I still want to work and I'm looking at teaching (physics) because I have A levels in maths and all science and a masters in sciences. Unfortunately we had kids late and things have just got worse and that's been a key factor, and wife can't stand me anymore and moans all the time plus we've had no 'relationship' for 20 years. I can't stand it anymore either having sacrificed my career progression for the sake of the stable upbringing of the children. I still have the energy and desire for another relationship. I took the decision to join dating apps where I seem to be very popular with 35-55 year old ladies so why not come on here and chat as well ? It makes me feel better anyway.

My view of what life is:-

I am a seeker. I have seen and felt so many things in my life that make no rational sense... and i don’t reject these experiences and try to rationalise them, and I have felt for along time that the arrow of time is somehow a floored idea. Do I feel like I have free will - yes - so no arrow of time would mean no free will or total plasticity of the past and future if there was no arrow of time !
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