Happy (?) birthday to me...today was my birthday. it wasn't really that special of a day since i always have a lot of anxiety around it. i have to keep reminding myself to breathe because nothing bad will happen just because I'm one number older. this year it wasn't as... See More »
It is getting better...I am successfully letting go of them. my heart doesn't feel as heavy thinking they won't talk to me again. i don't feel as anxious waiting for a new message to come in. I'm still checking just in case something came up and i didn't see, but i don't... See More »
let me breathe actually...i try. i am trying to let myself grief while being grateful that I'm growing from it. my birthday is coming up. i will not feel like this forever. the winter will end someday and i will be here. i will be better. i just need to breathe
This past week...What a great learning curve i had this past week. I am learning to be grateful for the wisdom all my mistakes have left behind. I am grateful to have lost people in a peaceful manner and I am grateful for what they left behind in my life, truly... See More »
fading friendship....I'm having a bit of a hard time getting used to the silence of... you know that soft (or not so soft) grief you feel when a friendship starts to fade away? like it's not that you hate each other or something major happened but the constant buzz of... See More »
late night thoughts or whatever...on the "banality of evil"... i understand the concept of "evil people" being banal as in H*tler was in no way shape or form a genius, he was a racist piece of shit with literally no real talent. he wasn't even an specially good orator because there... See More »
Maus, the graphic novelhoe listen. i understand why it won a pulitzer. I GET IT. I'm like at the end chapter and no graphic novel has ever made me feel like this 😭 idk even know what i feel lol. discomfort? sadness? it is amazing tho.
Sometimes I wonder...Like I'm neurodivergent and have a bit of a big personality, I know sometimes I say things in a way that might poke people the wrong way but I don't think I'm a bad person, and I know mental health is not an excuse to be rude but sometimes I... See More »
*sigh* anyway...I honestly opened this acc because I recently made a huge mistake that made me get kicked out of a discord gc where i was trying to make friends. I apologized like 5 times for the thing I said and I was honestly sorry but they wouldn't listen to me.... See More »
uhm... not to be rudenot to be a b*tch but pls don't message me. I'm only using this app to let my little thoughts out and vent a bit 😬 we can just interact under posts 🫶🏻