I Feel Overwhelmed By Life

Don't even know where to begin. I don't want to live anymore, but I don't want to die either. I am so f***ing fed up of living a life that I don't want. I've met none of my expectations or lived any of my dreams. What is the point of even being here? I'm never going to achieve anything. I have no purpose. I am not needed by anyone. I know life is not meant to be easy, but does it have to be this f***ing hard ALL the time?! I am so sick of everything. Even when I learn to let things go and just go with the flow something always goes wrong. I'm always stuck. I'm forever failing. Sometimes I fail so hard that there is no coming back. Right now I feel so unworthy, useless and pathetic. I don't want a pity party. I just want things to be ok. There's no one I can truly be o with either. No one I can be vulnerable with. I finally though I was over SHing. But nope... All I wanna do is hold something sharp against me. I'm not a pathetic child. I'm just broken. I try and I try but life always beats me back down. What is the point in getting back up? Just live for the ordinary? Just keep breathing? Surviving? I don't know.

Sorry... I needed that little rant. I can't keep it in.