I Remember You
August 29, 2009... You begged me to go home but I refused. I was determined to stay near you until the end. Today is the very first time... My goodness, seven years!... that I have acknowledged this day... Yes ma'am, I know that no one here on this site has a clue as to who you were and yes ma'am I know I ought to be going to your grave instead or maybe I should post this on facebook where most of our blood ties lie, but it's still hard for me to celebrate your death and it's still hard for me to make your favorite babies cry by reminding them of this day seven years ago. Where does the time go maw maw?...
... I remember you beautiful with your pretty green eyes sitting on my porch 3 days before my 36th birthday. I remember even though you were "blind as a bat," you still insisted on writing in my card and signing your name. I remember you telling me on the porch that day when I asked you, "My birthday ain't for three more days so why are you bringing me a birthday cake today maw maw?"
You replied, "My days are numbered baby. I'm not gonna be here much longer. I want to see you blow your birthday candles out before I leave here."
I remember my mama getting mad at you for saying that to me and stomping off because she didn't want to hear you talk that "nonsense." I believed you and you knew I did. You just shook your head when she went inside my house and refused to listen to you and you said, "Some people just can't handle the truth."
I remember you reminding me to watch the lights after you're gone and I asked you why and you smiled your beautiful smile and said, "Just watch the lights after I'm gone."
I remember laying at the foot of your bed below your feet curled up on two cushions and covered with your favorite comforter with the sound of your slow raspy breaths putting me to sleep. It seemed i slept for ten seconds when all of a sudden I heard my mother screaming my name to wake because "My God she's leaving us!!!"
By the time I stood up to see you alive just one more time... You were already gone...
... I remember running into the hallway with my cell phone afterward in shock to make the calls to everyone that no one wants to make...
... I remember the very first phone number I dialed in that surreal moment, "443-6918," I remember your memory making me burst in hysterical laughter because I was dialing you maw maw!... Only, my call was too late...
... I remember driving away from the hospital with my mama in the passenger seat on our way to the funeral home and I remember seeing the first street light lamp bulbs literally blow out one at a time as we drove past each one... I saw them and so did mama... One... two... three... I could hear you whisper from heaven, "I love you."
I remember your words, "When you are with the man you love who loves you back, you better love him every time he wants your love because every opportunity you miss his love, is an opportunity missed for life." ~Claudia
[youtube=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nq8TasNsgKw]
I wouldn't be half as strong as I am today, if it weren't for you. And guess what? In life you were my rock, in spirit you are my light.
[youtube=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YFmV46BMqiQ]
I remember your great grandsons performing this song in honor of you and they had the entire congregation, even the Priest singing along... Your death and your sending off was just as beautiful as your life my precious<3
Why We Call Her Grandmother
As she lies in her heavenly sleep, we remember the beautiful moments that our grandmother shared with us.
Midnight talks and a few tears under the stars as we sat on her backyard swing and made mental movies while listening to the marvelous stories Grandmother told without a fuss.
Getting high on her caffeine and laughter as Grandmother was up with the sun during one thousand or so mornings offering motherly companionship and wise advice when she knew we needed it.
Proudly catching that first fish that only weighed one eighth of a pound and beaming with pride as Grandmother bragged to everyone in town how big that first fish was that her grand baby had caught by the time the story got around.
Jumping in Brown's Creek on a hot, humid day trying to cool off and relax by escaping the city and the heat of the day, we watched our Grandmother get chased out by a big, hissing snake who decided to join her in the cold water of the creek as we stood shocked with fear from under the shade.
That day was the day that Grandmother taught us to be grateful for the summer heat in town as we all scrambled back into her ole Oldsmobile so fast, none of us felt our feet touch the ground.
Grandmother was First Holy Communions and learning to put God first before all others by practicing prayer from dawn to dusk because as she always said, "Saying the Lord's Prayer followed by the Rosary is a must."
Grandmother was grand in her own essence because she loved all of her children unselfishly and she was our best friend.
If there was one slice of bread left and two of us at her table hungry, Grandmother would slice that bread in two pieces and kindly watch us eat needlessly.
Grandmother was our "undercover mother" whenever we needed, our "home remedy doctor" whenever we became sick, hurt, or bleeding.
Passionately, Grandmother knew how to be our best friend who cared for every one of us deeply.
Loving all of us was Grandmother's life, unfortunately, she became sleepy.
Her children knew her as "Mama," her grandchildren called her, "Maw maw," while her great grandchildren settled for simply, "Nana."
No matter what name Grandmother was called, she was loved by them all.
All of grandmother's children know her as grand because there is no other who can take the place of our dear mother.
That is why we call her our Grandmother.
~RebelOfSouthernEnvy©
[youtube=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RiQqPy6qPA0]
Beautiful soul, your most favorite song in the world.
[youtube=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D17VBxsZ1Pw]
When the Universe took you from our world, the Universe broke our circle and took our heart.
Lastly, I remember calling you up in the middle of the night and our conversation went something like this, "Maw maw, whatcha doin?"
"Baby, I'm laying here with my Conway Twitty."
"Oh really? How's ole Conway got my maw maw feelin?"
"Without, baby... without."
[youtube=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fhw7MjSMkAQ]
PS
I haven't had another birthday cake since yours<3
... I remember you beautiful with your pretty green eyes sitting on my porch 3 days before my 36th birthday. I remember even though you were "blind as a bat," you still insisted on writing in my card and signing your name. I remember you telling me on the porch that day when I asked you, "My birthday ain't for three more days so why are you bringing me a birthday cake today maw maw?"
You replied, "My days are numbered baby. I'm not gonna be here much longer. I want to see you blow your birthday candles out before I leave here."
I remember my mama getting mad at you for saying that to me and stomping off because she didn't want to hear you talk that "nonsense." I believed you and you knew I did. You just shook your head when she went inside my house and refused to listen to you and you said, "Some people just can't handle the truth."
I remember you reminding me to watch the lights after you're gone and I asked you why and you smiled your beautiful smile and said, "Just watch the lights after I'm gone."
I remember laying at the foot of your bed below your feet curled up on two cushions and covered with your favorite comforter with the sound of your slow raspy breaths putting me to sleep. It seemed i slept for ten seconds when all of a sudden I heard my mother screaming my name to wake because "My God she's leaving us!!!"
By the time I stood up to see you alive just one more time... You were already gone...
... I remember running into the hallway with my cell phone afterward in shock to make the calls to everyone that no one wants to make...
... I remember the very first phone number I dialed in that surreal moment, "443-6918," I remember your memory making me burst in hysterical laughter because I was dialing you maw maw!... Only, my call was too late...
... I remember driving away from the hospital with my mama in the passenger seat on our way to the funeral home and I remember seeing the first street light lamp bulbs literally blow out one at a time as we drove past each one... I saw them and so did mama... One... two... three... I could hear you whisper from heaven, "I love you."
I remember your words, "When you are with the man you love who loves you back, you better love him every time he wants your love because every opportunity you miss his love, is an opportunity missed for life." ~Claudia
[youtube=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nq8TasNsgKw]
I wouldn't be half as strong as I am today, if it weren't for you. And guess what? In life you were my rock, in spirit you are my light.
[youtube=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YFmV46BMqiQ]
I remember your great grandsons performing this song in honor of you and they had the entire congregation, even the Priest singing along... Your death and your sending off was just as beautiful as your life my precious<3
Why We Call Her Grandmother
As she lies in her heavenly sleep, we remember the beautiful moments that our grandmother shared with us.
Midnight talks and a few tears under the stars as we sat on her backyard swing and made mental movies while listening to the marvelous stories Grandmother told without a fuss.
Getting high on her caffeine and laughter as Grandmother was up with the sun during one thousand or so mornings offering motherly companionship and wise advice when she knew we needed it.
Proudly catching that first fish that only weighed one eighth of a pound and beaming with pride as Grandmother bragged to everyone in town how big that first fish was that her grand baby had caught by the time the story got around.
Jumping in Brown's Creek on a hot, humid day trying to cool off and relax by escaping the city and the heat of the day, we watched our Grandmother get chased out by a big, hissing snake who decided to join her in the cold water of the creek as we stood shocked with fear from under the shade.
That day was the day that Grandmother taught us to be grateful for the summer heat in town as we all scrambled back into her ole Oldsmobile so fast, none of us felt our feet touch the ground.
Grandmother was First Holy Communions and learning to put God first before all others by practicing prayer from dawn to dusk because as she always said, "Saying the Lord's Prayer followed by the Rosary is a must."
Grandmother was grand in her own essence because she loved all of her children unselfishly and she was our best friend.
If there was one slice of bread left and two of us at her table hungry, Grandmother would slice that bread in two pieces and kindly watch us eat needlessly.
Grandmother was our "undercover mother" whenever we needed, our "home remedy doctor" whenever we became sick, hurt, or bleeding.
Passionately, Grandmother knew how to be our best friend who cared for every one of us deeply.
Loving all of us was Grandmother's life, unfortunately, she became sleepy.
Her children knew her as "Mama," her grandchildren called her, "Maw maw," while her great grandchildren settled for simply, "Nana."
No matter what name Grandmother was called, she was loved by them all.
All of grandmother's children know her as grand because there is no other who can take the place of our dear mother.
That is why we call her our Grandmother.
~RebelOfSouthernEnvy©
[youtube=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RiQqPy6qPA0]
Beautiful soul, your most favorite song in the world.
[youtube=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D17VBxsZ1Pw]
When the Universe took you from our world, the Universe broke our circle and took our heart.
Lastly, I remember calling you up in the middle of the night and our conversation went something like this, "Maw maw, whatcha doin?"
"Baby, I'm laying here with my Conway Twitty."
"Oh really? How's ole Conway got my maw maw feelin?"
"Without, baby... without."
[youtube=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fhw7MjSMkAQ]
PS
I haven't had another birthday cake since yours<3
46-50, F
