Missing him!!

So my birthday is in 9 days and I’m really missing my husband!! Today has been a rough day because I got to talk to him and all of the feelings of sadness is coming up because he isn’t here and should be (stupid Army). I’m trying to keep it together but it’s hard. Honestly I’ve gained back some of the weight I lost. I need to start walking again on my days off. Sorry in advance for rambling.