I Need to Take Better Care of Myself
I really wish I could get in the habit of eating right and exercising. For most of the last year, my job has been taking over my life. I've been stress-eating more than ever, which even if I can manage to avoid chips and ice cream, is almost impossible not to do since I work in a kitchen and there's a lot of free food floating around. I don't have a scale to quantify it, but it's apparent by looking in the mirror that I've put on weight.
I started counting calories again in an effort to curb my eating habits, but usually before I even know it there are days where I'll indulge my sweet tooth thinking it'll be alright and end up at 3000 calories for the day. It's always a mood-killer to see that I can't even control myself when I'm trying to control myself.
All of it wouldn't be so bad if I just exercised regularly, but I can never find the time and energy consistently enough to really stick to it. I work retail hours, so my schedule is never set. I'm not able to really plan a regimen and almost always have to squeeze my infrequent workouts in when I have enough time. Between spending an hour and a half in traffic every day, staying late at work, and taking the time for cooking and basic necessities, there's not much time left over for a workout. Hell, a lot of times I have to rush out of the house without brushing my teeth.
These days it's more difficult to just find the energy since I tend to shut down after busting my buns at work. I don't really take breaks since the job is non-stop and I'm held accountable for everything as the only manager around most days. I spend any down time at work catching up on things I should've done days earlier or fixing other people's mistakes. It's a never-ending struggle that wears me down long before I ever even clock out. It's difficult to muster up the energy when you come home basically drained each day.
I don't even have the will to go hiking anymore, which has always been one of my favorite activities and a great way to burn fat. There's so much to see and do where I live, but I haven't gotten a chance to enjoy them like I wanted. It's almost the cold season where the mountains get too snowy to hike and I really want to get at least one good one in before the year's over. I'm doubting that's going to happen though. I really don't know how other people do it, but I need to find a way.
I started counting calories again in an effort to curb my eating habits, but usually before I even know it there are days where I'll indulge my sweet tooth thinking it'll be alright and end up at 3000 calories for the day. It's always a mood-killer to see that I can't even control myself when I'm trying to control myself.
All of it wouldn't be so bad if I just exercised regularly, but I can never find the time and energy consistently enough to really stick to it. I work retail hours, so my schedule is never set. I'm not able to really plan a regimen and almost always have to squeeze my infrequent workouts in when I have enough time. Between spending an hour and a half in traffic every day, staying late at work, and taking the time for cooking and basic necessities, there's not much time left over for a workout. Hell, a lot of times I have to rush out of the house without brushing my teeth.
These days it's more difficult to just find the energy since I tend to shut down after busting my buns at work. I don't really take breaks since the job is non-stop and I'm held accountable for everything as the only manager around most days. I spend any down time at work catching up on things I should've done days earlier or fixing other people's mistakes. It's a never-ending struggle that wears me down long before I ever even clock out. It's difficult to muster up the energy when you come home basically drained each day.
I don't even have the will to go hiking anymore, which has always been one of my favorite activities and a great way to burn fat. There's so much to see and do where I live, but I haven't gotten a chance to enjoy them like I wanted. It's almost the cold season where the mountains get too snowy to hike and I really want to get at least one good one in before the year's over. I'm doubting that's going to happen though. I really don't know how other people do it, but I need to find a way.
