I Hate Eating

I come in and out of it. I go from being okay and being cool with how things are, to being so angry, and so mad and I feel like there’s chains on me back and it gets hard to breathe and my chest tightens and I get shortness of breath. My mental state shifts constantly, I’ll feel like I can do it one day, the next day I’ll just be lost and mad... I haven’t eaten in a while. I really don’t want to anymore