I Wish I Was Normal
No one will read this.
Whenever I'm exposed to the fact that people have normal social relations, it makes me feel awful because that is something I've never had. I'm not exactly jealous. I'm not exactly angry. I'm saddened by the reminder of my predicament. More than anything there's a fear that I've developed of somehow being put on the spot and having it be apparent that I don't have any social ties.
Life is hell when your loneliness acts as yet another a barrier between you and others. Nothing is worse than having problems that no one can relate to.
Whenever I'm exposed to the fact that people have normal social relations, it makes me feel awful because that is something I've never had. I'm not exactly jealous. I'm not exactly angry. I'm saddened by the reminder of my predicament. More than anything there's a fear that I've developed of somehow being put on the spot and having it be apparent that I don't have any social ties.
Life is hell when your loneliness acts as yet another a barrier between you and others. Nothing is worse than having problems that no one can relate to.
