I Hate How Boring Life Is

I am trying to get more fun events and things in life to look forward to this year. I realized i kept myself from things like this because of being frugal claiming to not be able to afford it and getting disheartened because all the trips and events well i only had four, got canceled and then i was just thinking whats the point I spent a lot of time preparing for them I wanted to go to the air show with airplanes but it got canceled. I cant wait for all these new things like Disney on ice.