I Feel Like a Loser

Sometimes...... There are times I just feel like a complete loser, and it isn't because I do not accomplish things. It's because of my anxiety. I make friends, and then watch them go, I wish I could just seize the day, sometimes, and try something new. Who cares if I am alone doing it, I just need to get out and experience. Experience what life has to offer, what close friendship, a better paying job, anything out there has to offer because it must be something better than staying in the darkness of my room. I know I have a family that loves me, but they are all 30 to 40 years older than me who just enjoy telling me what I don't know. Life must have other things to offer... I just do not want to feel this way anymore