I Get Tired Of Being Strong

Sometimes you no longer wish to be strong but jump off the nearest cliff. Sometimes you pray that all the advice and encouragement you give others would make sense in your own life. Like why can't I believe something good will happen to me? Why can't somebody love me? Sometimes giving up seems like the best option. And then I worry about who I'm going to hurt if I give up so I don't do anything but I still hurt, I crumble and I pray that these feelings I have sometimes will go away.