I Have An Update
So... A lot of things have gone on, not good but I wont be complaining.
Previously I spoke about my depression and anxiety, well it has got worse over time. I have missed half of my college year and lessons which gave me an average grade. For a 'A grade student', achieving B's and a C was something that broke me.
Before all of that, for the first time I almost committed suicide and my self harming increased. I had these bad thoughts in my mind because I felt alone. my aim was to start off 2017 fresh but I had ended up feeling my lowest.
I have been visiting my GP but hey, they aren't qualified as much when it comes to mental health besides knowing what medication to give... I AM TIRED of living my life in misery and feeling like sh*t.
It's my time. I will fight my anxiety, depression and become the happy person I used to be 4 years ago.
The fact that I have faced so much in these 6 months from nearly getting kicked out of college to my mother almost kicking me out is insane. Lets think positive, I have achieved and over came so much. For someone who is scared, confused, moody and depressed, I managed to get out of it all. well, I wouldn't say I have escaped it all, but I have seen most of it. Life throws you many difficulties and this is my first!
In conclusion, I'm never going to give up on my dreams. I wont listen to the teachers who have told me I can not become a lawyer because of my mental 'state'. F*ck what people think and do YOU. LOVE YOURSELF mann.
- Note to myself
Previously I spoke about my depression and anxiety, well it has got worse over time. I have missed half of my college year and lessons which gave me an average grade. For a 'A grade student', achieving B's and a C was something that broke me.
Before all of that, for the first time I almost committed suicide and my self harming increased. I had these bad thoughts in my mind because I felt alone. my aim was to start off 2017 fresh but I had ended up feeling my lowest.
I have been visiting my GP but hey, they aren't qualified as much when it comes to mental health besides knowing what medication to give... I AM TIRED of living my life in misery and feeling like sh*t.
It's my time. I will fight my anxiety, depression and become the happy person I used to be 4 years ago.
The fact that I have faced so much in these 6 months from nearly getting kicked out of college to my mother almost kicking me out is insane. Lets think positive, I have achieved and over came so much. For someone who is scared, confused, moody and depressed, I managed to get out of it all. well, I wouldn't say I have escaped it all, but I have seen most of it. Life throws you many difficulties and this is my first!
In conclusion, I'm never going to give up on my dreams. I wont listen to the teachers who have told me I can not become a lawyer because of my mental 'state'. F*ck what people think and do YOU. LOVE YOURSELF mann.
- Note to myself