I Miss Being a Kid
I miss having less expected of me. I miss having more freedom. I miss being able to screw up without the consequences being as harsh. I miss things being much more simple. If only my biggest problem was after school detention. If only it were that easy. I miss the days of class field trips, class parties for halloween and valentines day. I miss recess, coloring, playing with toys, playing field hockey in gym class. I used to be very good at it.
I hate having to worry about money. I hate having to freak out over bills. I hate all the stress that comes with college. I don't even know if college is even for me. Part of me wants to go into cosmetology but as we all know that is going to go over well with my parents. They'll just laugh at me for it. I'm a freshmen in community college just sort of waffling around at the moment. I have no set direction or no real major declared. I'm just lost.
Can I please be 9 and not 19? Even just for a day?
I guess there are perks such as being able to drive or stay up later but it all comes at a cost. When I was a child I used to get excited for adulthood. I thought it was a party all the time. I could stay up as late as I wanted. I could eat as much junkfood as I wanted without anyone stopping me. I could drive. I could do as I please whenever I please. What a bunch of crap. Every single thing comes at a cost. Staying up late could mean being sleep deprived on the job. Eating as many doritos as I want could give me diabetes. Driving can kill me if I get into an accident. Doing whatever I want could get me killed or possibly land me in jail.
I hate having to worry about money. I hate having to freak out over bills. I hate all the stress that comes with college. I don't even know if college is even for me. Part of me wants to go into cosmetology but as we all know that is going to go over well with my parents. They'll just laugh at me for it. I'm a freshmen in community college just sort of waffling around at the moment. I have no set direction or no real major declared. I'm just lost.
Can I please be 9 and not 19? Even just for a day?
I guess there are perks such as being able to drive or stay up later but it all comes at a cost. When I was a child I used to get excited for adulthood. I thought it was a party all the time. I could stay up as late as I wanted. I could eat as much junkfood as I wanted without anyone stopping me. I could drive. I could do as I please whenever I please. What a bunch of crap. Every single thing comes at a cost. Staying up late could mean being sleep deprived on the job. Eating as many doritos as I want could give me diabetes. Driving can kill me if I get into an accident. Doing whatever I want could get me killed or possibly land me in jail.
