I Am Impotent
somewhat... now what woman wants to read 3 or 4 paragraphs I send privately about how hurt and deprived I feel in the fleeting moments I'm almost able to feel something but don't get to?
what i'd be snapped at and walked out on or kicked out if I shared even if I was asked for those answers. I'm fucking hurt and I would give if I had it to give I even give what I don't have to give I am looked at like I've taken I gave it my all I almost landed a miracle too.
fucking doctors and health workers who get paid to invade a persons life privacy and brain with defecting substances and fucked up manipulative things. finally more free of their impositions I ask my dad for help to bridge a downpayment in my transition he says "I will help but you have to give up your financial rights again and live in an institution" the fucking ignorant jerk of an old fucking fart man. dad all I'd have to do to acquire that life is raise my hands and say do what you want doctor.. I wouldn't need help with it. and id rather die.
what i'd be snapped at and walked out on or kicked out if I shared even if I was asked for those answers. I'm fucking hurt and I would give if I had it to give I even give what I don't have to give I am looked at like I've taken I gave it my all I almost landed a miracle too.
fucking doctors and health workers who get paid to invade a persons life privacy and brain with defecting substances and fucked up manipulative things. finally more free of their impositions I ask my dad for help to bridge a downpayment in my transition he says "I will help but you have to give up your financial rights again and live in an institution" the fucking ignorant jerk of an old fucking fart man. dad all I'd have to do to acquire that life is raise my hands and say do what you want doctor.. I wouldn't need help with it. and id rather die.
