I Am a Daughter of a Mentally Ill Mom
I don't if my mom is mentally ill. Probably.
Not going into deep details. So my mom quit her job and started getting into her own little world. She stopped communicating with people. My dad tried to help but my mom refused so yeah. My parents divorced when I was 18 and my brother was 24. We would call and talk to mom and our aunt to see how they're doing. My mom lives in out home state. We took her back there. I lived without my mom for 11 years. I still need her. She never calls us, not even on our birthdays. It still didn't stop us from having a fun birthday. We called instead. Anyways fast foward to present. My aunt is getting older and planing to move. My mom I don't know what she going to do. She isn't working or trying to do anything for herself. Just sitting in the house being lazy. My mom wasn't always like this. She was a good mom, always there for us, fun, loves to sing and dance, and sweet. I miss the mother/daughter days we have together and was there for me when I went through puberty of becoming a young woman. I miss the strong woman my mom used to me but deep down I know that woman is still inside of her. When we visit, she is always happy to see us. We can't help someone that doesn't want help. My aunts and uncles aren't do anything to set our Mama straight. My aunt says I gotta live my own life which is true and I do. I don't feel better until I talk to my mama and her. At least we have other relatives that are there for us.
I'm planning to see her for the holidays. I mean a couple months ago they did take my mom to the doctor but they said nothing was wrong with her which is good but something isn't right.
I'm turning 30 and I feel like my mom will think I don't need her anymore. I have other mother figures around. I have my aunts and older female cousins. When I see my friends with their mothers, I feel left out. I know there's people with worse mothers and I feel bad for them. My mama needs to get her shit together. I hope I don't end up like her. I feel like I just wanna give up and forget about her but I can't do that. She is my mother. My dad said don't ever forget my mom. Keep trying to call her. I'll NEVER give up on my mother. I still gotta do me and do what I gotta do.
Okay I'm done ranting.
Not going into deep details. So my mom quit her job and started getting into her own little world. She stopped communicating with people. My dad tried to help but my mom refused so yeah. My parents divorced when I was 18 and my brother was 24. We would call and talk to mom and our aunt to see how they're doing. My mom lives in out home state. We took her back there. I lived without my mom for 11 years. I still need her. She never calls us, not even on our birthdays. It still didn't stop us from having a fun birthday. We called instead. Anyways fast foward to present. My aunt is getting older and planing to move. My mom I don't know what she going to do. She isn't working or trying to do anything for herself. Just sitting in the house being lazy. My mom wasn't always like this. She was a good mom, always there for us, fun, loves to sing and dance, and sweet. I miss the mother/daughter days we have together and was there for me when I went through puberty of becoming a young woman. I miss the strong woman my mom used to me but deep down I know that woman is still inside of her. When we visit, she is always happy to see us. We can't help someone that doesn't want help. My aunts and uncles aren't do anything to set our Mama straight. My aunt says I gotta live my own life which is true and I do. I don't feel better until I talk to my mama and her. At least we have other relatives that are there for us.
I'm planning to see her for the holidays. I mean a couple months ago they did take my mom to the doctor but they said nothing was wrong with her which is good but something isn't right.
I'm turning 30 and I feel like my mom will think I don't need her anymore. I have other mother figures around. I have my aunts and older female cousins. When I see my friends with their mothers, I feel left out. I know there's people with worse mothers and I feel bad for them. My mama needs to get her shit together. I hope I don't end up like her. I feel like I just wanna give up and forget about her but I can't do that. She is my mother. My dad said don't ever forget my mom. Keep trying to call her. I'll NEVER give up on my mother. I still gotta do me and do what I gotta do.
Okay I'm done ranting.
