I Feel Abandoned

Yes, I have felt abandoned all my 55 years. Over & over, by birth parents, by adoptive parents, by friends, and relationships, then again, by birth family (when I found them) I've always been the care giver, the helper, the listener, played every role, regardless of how I was treated. Stayed so much longer in relationships than I should ever have. I forgave over & over only to still be left. The once social person has now become a person that trusts absolutely no one at all. The once hopeful person, now sees nothing at all to look forward to. The Dreamer, now empty of any dreams... I'm just sitting here waiting for the end of my time alone. No one is there to give me a hand, to listen, to comfort, to ask if I need anything. I stopped answering those who only contact me when they want something from me. I have nothing left to give. When I gave of myself, it was never enough.