i've been watching alot of YouTube videos about what makes men disappear and why they'd be too busy to communicate for days. i don't buy the "too busy" story, because i don't see how anyone can be too busy to call or send an email or text every minute of the day for several days. Anyway, the explanation i get from YouTubers is simple. Disinterest and not being worth his time and effort. Whatever he's doing is just more important than me, his sleep is more important, his rest is more important. i can't feel settled when someone i'm supposed to be with can sleep without having said a word to me in over 12 hours. i envision that he became busy and that he forgot that i even exist for days, maybe it will be a week before i'm remembered. i wonder if i am just supposed to sit and wait for someone who isn't giving me the time of day. i think that i will not sit and wait.