I Have a Date Tonight
My date and I spoke a whole lot last night, despite the fact that he wanted me to pay for my own movie tickets and told me inside the movie theater that his cousin died and he needed to save money for his cousin's funeral...we had great conversations and he was "all ears". I was very nervous around him because I didn't want him to make any sudden move as to kiss me or rush me into bed and I really want to wait until after I'm married to have ANY KIND of sexual encounter because I feel that it's essential for myself and my partner to RESPECT our bodies until God grants us leniency to touch one another. I can't really see myself with Stephen at all, especially since he wanted to make me pay for my own movie ticket...and even if he didn't ask me, and my feelings became more intense for him, I would DEFINITELY wait until he asks me to marry him and until after the priest says "you are now husband and wife" is when I can have sexual intercourse with the man I am wedded to. This is how my Father wanted it, this is how I wanted it, and this is how I will make it...I demand Respect in the eyes of God and I am a very nervous and shy person who is not Dominant or Submissive and I want to take things slowly until after I've tied the knot.