Try not to compare yourself to your siblings, I too am guilty of this. We’re all different and are all on our own journeys through life, some people cope with what life throws at them differently, some people sort life out easily and others struggle more. If you want things to be different, your the only one who can do this, I’d suggest setting goals, even if they’re small to start with, sometimes the smallest achievement to someone is a great step for another

We can't choose who we're born into.

We can't change what cards we're dealt in life. Our circumstances.

But, mostly, we have a play in how we turn out to be. How we use those cards.

I think God gives the strongest the hardest things in life. But, if you're trying, that's all that matters.

Sometimes, it's the little things that count. That makes a good person good.

You're doing someghing. You're something. Something pretty good. Never doubt your worth.

IA fighting. 👊💪💪💪

IMO, you're being way too hard on yourself given your birth order, phychological issues/limitations, etc. That's especially true if you're helping other family members financially. I can't help but wonder whether your family dynamic is dysfunctional, and if you're being dumped on by the rest of the fam.

Still, you are the master of your own ship. You're well beyond the age where you can legitimately blame anyone else for your lot in life. YOU CHOOSE what you will be.

Don't listen to the negative voices