I Need to Get Something Off My Chest

Complicated situation: If you have read my past stories you know about my situation with my female best friend. Quick update: last thing that happened is I asked her out and she said she "can't afford to have those feelings for anyone" because they would be "too destructive." However, her parents adore me, she agrees that we are cute together, all of our friends ship us, and her sister agrees that Itzel (my best friend) and I could have a chance in the future. Now for the complication: this past week I attended a USY (Jewish youth group) convention and met this girl. On the last day of the convention (Thursday morning), during the last general session I wound up with my head on her shoulder and her head leaning against mine, and we were holding hands. I got the urge to kiss her, but I didn't (we both agree I should have). The problem is that I like my female best friend so much that up until this point I haven't been able to feel feelings for anyone else. Even in this situation my feelings for this girl feel superficial and not pure becasue of how much I like my best friend, even though they are probably genuine feelings.


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Top- New girl
Bottom: Best friend