I Don't Know How to Be In a Relationship

@impulsive maybe it doesn't mean much to you, but it means something to me. I don't mean to imply that you're wrong in saying it's overrated, but it's just a thing that I personally value. In the past, I've pushed people away when I realized they were getting close. It wasn't necessarily because I didn't care for them, but because I thought I was doing them a favor. This is important for me because it marks not only a deep connection I have with someone, but also a love for myself that I've really just begun to develop :)

I'm aware. It's happened before. I opened myself up to only one person, before I loved myself, and it hurts even now. Don't get me wrong, I truly appreciate you trying to warn me. But I feel that at this point in time, I'm ready to work on it. This is my first try in years, and I'm only dipping my toes because I believe in the core of my being that it's something I need to do, and something I'm finally [i]ready[/i] to do. I'm hoping it goes well, but if not, I haven't thrown enough of myself in yet to lose myself again :)

@Southernpride I'm hoping that the learning curve mellows out, but I expect that it'll take some time :)

I understand, I used to be like you, you just have to realise when you do open yourself up your opening yourself up for not only happiness and love, but also heartbreak and betrayal and pain that can last far longer than the love ever did.

@allsmilesandawkwardness your right a lot of the thing of love is being open to it. And excepting it and growing. It's all about change and growth. But I think it go us for a lot of things in life not just love

Well just remember to not devote yourself entirely to a relationship ,always remember to keep a little of your heart back in order to protect yourself. If that makes any sense at all.

@tatyanasumakova I don't know that it had anything to do with not having found the right one. All I know is that I'm finally at a place where I'm willing to try :D

I plan to keep a bit in reserve until I'm ready, but I hope I'll eventually be able to give the rest too ^_^

It might just mean that you just haven't found that person that works for you.

It's a never ending learning process

its overrated anyway your not missing out on much.

Well good luck, hope your able to find someone