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I Believe Life Is About The Journey Not The Destination

Life is for the living! Live it all of the way!

I'm dedicating this day to Bill Campbell, Sr.

I write this to anyone who has, had or have thoughts of removing themselves from the lives of the people who love you! Think again before you try anything that takes you permanently from the earth as you.! You are loved beyond measure! Nothing can or will ever replace you! Death is a permanent thing!

Thirty years ago today Bill passed away. While he attempted to take his own life, it did not work as they found him in time, where he was rushed to the hospital in an attempt to keep him alive. He passed away six hours later due to a heart attack.

The pain his children and I endured was more than we thought we could handle at times. Billy, Jr. Passed nineteen years later. I can only imagine what he felt like living his short life without his dad. Kacie and Billy, in my opinion had seen more heartache and emotional pain than any child should have to bear.

Losing a loved one is the hardest thing most people endure in life, especially children whose parent or parents pass without even getting to know them.

What kind of pain is one having that's so unbearable that they take their lives? I can only say from my own experiences that when anyone is going through such pain, there seems to be no one around that understand or can comfort them so they don't take their lives. There are people around but the pain seems to be more. Love them and don't stop til they become well again!

For me, I had a faith that sustained me though at times that was even tested to the max. Wanting to stay in this world was the thought I kept thinking about even though my thoughts to leave seemed to be louder than my thoughts to stay.

As I am here still to tell my story of how I overcame, others have not been so lucky. If you have a loved one or are one yourself who doesn't see any other way but leaving please think twice.

There are many people in this world, even if they seem to be strangers to you, that will help you find your way.

This Too Shall Pass!

Your time will come when it's meant to, in whatever way it's supposed to. I don't think that taking your life is one of those times.

Find ways and people who will listen to your emotional pain and keep looking until you find one who will bring comfort to you. I went through hundreds of people, personal and professional until I finally trusted enough in myself that nothing in this world is worth taking a life for.

I'm celebrating Bill, Sr. today for the joy and the children he gave to me. I'm celebrating the memory I have of him of those two and a half years he spent with his children. I'm celebrating today his children he gave to me and the joy they have brought to my life and so many others in so many Beautiful ways. Try and see the beauty in yourself and others and let the thoughts that bring you emotional pain go. Acknowledge it, release it and think good thoughts in its place!

Sending thoughts of Love to everyone and to all of Creation as we are "All Connected" in one way or another.

Peace! <3 :)

The pain was too much for him and I now see that with love, wisdom, discernment and faith he may have had a better chance of surviving his pain. Don't stay in silence, be heard!

FB - Let's Wake Up Billy

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I can relate honestly about that but as in Billy's shoes. As a youngster I v
Had been hurt more than my share
, not that anyone should. At as young as 8 or 9 I tried to take my life, to disfigure myself. I was self punishing cause I thought i was a bad girl for living with all they did to me. At 13yrs, I got a strength big enough to put a stop to the biggest abuse. Then at 15yrs cancer took my mom away. I went back into depression but never saw a doctor. Took me a yr to get out of it.
At 18 I left that house as i found my birth mom and all physical abuse stopped.. but mental and emotion just went stronger.. I had just found her back but she started the abuse the same week.i thought I was born to be unloved and abused...thats my life

2.5 yrs ago when i I separated and lost my kids..that was it... i tried ro take my life.. I begged God to bring me back but he denied my request.. in the last 3 yrs I tried to end it over 8 times. In my life I've lost counts. At the time i did not think of anyone or anything it was just blank..

But I am strong.. I am still here.. GOD has better plan for me. He wants me happy and smiling. For the last 18 months I haven't tried to reach the other side. I know that it's not the solution.

As sad as it is.. my only friends are here and I have met some amazing ppl.ppl I care about and love. My friends.. yes YOU guys.. helped me in a way you just can't start to imagine by caring about me.. and i I want to say a HUGE thank you. You give me strength and the will to go on and smile and be happy. When we are from a struggle life.. it's not always easy... but I have my own say

In life NOTHING can't be overcome.. we all have within us the will to survive, all we need is to look deep down our soul.

Thank you to all who cares. You help me survive..you are my hero's and you don't even know it..Love you all 😚
Chantou

Justpeaceandlove · 61-69, F

Chantou thank you so very much got sharing your story. People need to speak up and allow others to help. The problem is we have learned to be fixers not helpers. We can't fix each other but we can be there to listen and give a helping hand.

Thank you so much and I'm so sorry you had to endure that emotional pain. You are now in the position to help others as you have helped me just now.

Thank you for staying on earth and for being you!

I'm glad I've met you! 😍😍😍

SW-User

@Justpeaceandlove: thank you as well lots of love 😍😍😍

Justpeaceandlove · 61-69, F

@Chantou: my Divine Pleasure! 😍

JoyfulSilence · 46-50, M

So sorry for your loss my friend.

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From time to time during my adult life I have been depressed, and some of these times felt like I wanted to die, and some of those times fantasized about it. But it never went beyond thought, and the next day I felt awful and scared and could not relate to the person I had briefly become, and rejected that person. And the depression passed, sometimes because of time, but usually new experiences or new interactions with people.

One prime reason for these feelings is loneliness: not having people I spend time with offline, no offline friends, no offline social life. Now, I do not want to be too active, socially. I have a few times been overwhelmed with offline social activity, and had to cut things out of my schedule. Yet a little would be nice. There are long stretches of no social activity, and it gets worse as I age. Old friends drift away, or get married, have children, and need to attend to that part of their lives. I have always been single. I know I need to get out there. I do try, but usually these activities are done alone. Even in a huge crowd of people I still am alone.

I also used to get out and about more. But as I age less and less. Things I used to like to do, even if only done alone, now I have no interest in, or my body is not up for it. Now, I know as we age some things have to slow down, and I am not unhappy necessarily because of aging. It takes a slow adjustment. Some things I cannot do anymore, but usually I can do then, but just choose not to because I am bored with it, or depressed and not up to doing anything. And then life just gets too familiar, lacks novelty, and the sense of exploration. There is only so many times I can drive that road or see that beach or stand on that mountain. I try to take vacations in interesting places of scenic beauty, but always alone so there is always something missing. Nobody to share the experience with. It hurts.

Another reason is heartache. I have had feelings for many women during my life, but none of these women ever felt the same for me. It mostly was because they could not, since they already were in a relationship. So I am not very intelligent, am I? And I should not lament, perhaps! Duh! Yet this has been a problem for me and I need to work harder, be more careful, not allow myself to grow attached. It is so easy to like nice women and many are non-single. I need to learn to keep my distance. I am so vulnerable in my lonely state.

As for the single women I fall for, none ever wanted to be more than friends, and many drifted away after they knew how I felt, or downright rejected me from their lives.

It hurts. One problem I know I have is that it is hard to let it go. Often the only way it goes away is when I fall for another woman.

Another problem I have now is all my friends are on social media, usually in anonymous situations. Nearly all my social life plays out on social media. Yes, I know social media can be good in ways, but it is probably not healthy to be so dependent on it. It is hard when I get close to somebody but cannot spend time offline with them. And of course people are not always what they seem. Some are very genuine, though.

Well, I have rambled a while. Thanks for reading, anybody who has.

Justpeaceandlove · 61-69, F

Thank you Joy for sharing. I think when we share our joys in life instead of looking at others things that are not we can and do get out of our own misery.

There's lots of help out there, just have to want it bad enough. When you share your joys others want to be around you. Life is for the living. Living is joyful.

We all come across obstacles. "When you change the way you 'see' things, the things you 'see' change".

It's really just a change of mind. If you've been using the same mindset and seeing no positive results, a simple change of mind helps tremendously.

Be well, be love, be blessed!

JoyfulSilence · 46-50, M

Yes, I need to change. And work on it. Try new things. Go outside my comfort zone.

Carissimi · F

So sorry for your heartache. 🌹

Justpeaceandlove · 61-69, F

It's sad to me mainly because others don't take the time to listen to other people's trials. If they did there would not be so much judgment. Where is the compassion in this world? Thank you Carissimi.

I don't understand why my journey has been as it was but I do understand now that I have the opportunity to help another to get through theirs.

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