I Re-read Our Personal Messages When I'm Missing You

It's all I have. Your last message was so nice. You were thoughtful and helpful while I was going through a difficult day. Your nice prayer was comforting. I know I can't count on you anymore but it was nice to be taken care of by you even though it was just for a moment. I keep it on my phone. I don't want to erase it but if people in my life see it they would ask me why I still talk to you and remind me that you won't be back and that it's bad to talk to you. It's just so nice to hear from you, even if you don't care about me like you did before. I can't help but to indulge. I just miss you so much. I just take the scraps you give me. It may not be right or healthy but It's all I have.