I Was Abandoned By My Mother

My mom left us when we were kids in 1995. I was only five. My brothers were 8 and 11. I would ask my dad when is mommy coming home. I tried reaching out to mom but she kept rejecting us. Then she I was 16 I saw her for the first time I 11 years. I tried to have a relationship with her but she just wasn't interested. She told us the brutal truth on why she really left us. She didn't want to be a mother anymore, too overwhelmed and she wanted her own life. That broke out hearts. My brothers moved on but it was hard for me to move on. She broke promises, stood me up for dinner and I waited for almost 4 hours. Then four years later I saw her again. I wanted to live with her but my family and friends told me it isn't a good idea. Unfortunatly they were right and it didn't work out. I only stayed for a week. Mom just wasn't interested and looked tired of having me around. That was the last time I saw her. It will be 10 years this April since I've seen her. Now she wants to meet up again. My dad and bros say no don't because she'll hurt me again and stop hurting myself and move on from mom. When I see my friends with their moms, I always get envious. I see little girls laughing with their moms on mother, daughter days. I never had that....not that I remember.
My mom never showed up for my high school graduation, misses my first school dances, prom and my first period (becoming a woman). I'm so angry that she missed out. I even tried to call my mom and ask for advice about my first period, left a message but she NEVER returned my call. She never does. All I had was a stupid ass BOX! My aunt had to fill I for my mom. My aunt should not have been the one to step in to help fill I the mother duties, but I'm grateful she did. She said she was heartbroken for us, especially for me since mom left and Dad said I needed a female role model. I want mom. Since I was five, I've seemed out mother figures.