I Am In a Relationship

This feels like a bit of the old me right now, it’s 1:10am and I’m sitting here on the floor of my girlfriends bedroom, I’ve just been to Starbucks had a large double shot latte and now I’m sipping a beer, I’ve not been my self recently and I know my girlfriend can see that, she wants to help and she always knows how to cheer me up, but right now she’s sleeping, she was when I got in so I’m waiting for the basketball to start, I’m eating a sandwich that I’ve just bought listening to her deep breathing, I bought her some roses, I know they’ll make her smile and I guess it’ll let her know that I’m always going to love her which I feel she doubts sometimes, but it’s not her it’s me I feel I need to push my self and be better, she’s my world and I wouldn’t trade her for anything, I just needed to vent ✌🏻