I Want to Die, I Have Nothing to Live For

@Miram USA midwest

@HeadoftheHouse I went through your profile, adult spanking stories aside, you should leave the kids out of the topic of fetishes. You've made few posts about that. It's unhealthy.

Maybe your need to give up is not just because of you having no home or your car being taken out. It is because you are not at peace with the person you are.

Make peace with it, make peace with things out of your control and make peace with those that are within your control but you refuse to address. Listen to your truth.

A job can be earned, a house can be earned again, a car can be earned too..And similarly, so would be redemption. You seem to be a christian. Perhaps try to connect to your faith and talk to a priest.

@Miram I'm not. A Christain. Part of the reason I posted my the disclaimer that I'm not who I pretend to be online.. Is a desire to put my dark fantasies behind me, but yet I can't so I'm done...

@HeadoftheHouse

No, it is not time for you to be done yet.

I did not read the disclaimer.

What most don't realize is that you cannot overcome fixations by exploring them in an unsupervised manner. On the contrary, they get stronger.

You would need someone to help you develop a healthy coping strategy and work on a balanced life style.

@Miram the disclaimer is my featured story ... It basically says what I am which is shit

@HeadoftheHouse You're someone who wants to get better and understands why. It is progress. I wish more people who have this problem made your choice to protect others from their tendencies.

Choose life, find help and help others like you.

@Miram I've never acted on my tendencies.. But there still there

@HeadoftheHouse

That's good. You can learn to manage them. It is very achievable. It is not [i]hope[/i], it is reality.

Don't give up. There is so much good you can do in this world.